and just like that
i am now
an old stupid guy
who gives shitty advice to
awesome young people

and just like that
i am now
an old guy
who gives advice to
young people

when i was young
i cared if a movie is good.

when i was older
i cared if a director is good.

when i was even older
i cared if movie as a concept is good.

i wonder what i will care about
when i am even more older.

when i was young
i wanted to make
an artwork:

a chess video game
in which chess ai
is actually conscious
and can only communicate
by moving pieces,
and it is up to the players
to have the patience
to understand it.

maybe i will make
this artwork
before i die.

i had dinner with
three young japanese engineers
at my mom’s home
and i asked them
if they like yukio mishima
and none of them knew
who yukio mishima was

we have reached the pinnacle
of emotional manipulation
and have completely neglected
developing our consciousness.

this is why we are not able
to become immortal and equal,
but we live in fear of each other,
and die young and weak.