simon was
an assistant cameraman
on a movie
edited by a wife
of a second best friend
of a producer
who saw al pacino
in los angeles
seven months ago
i watched a short porn film
about wife who has sex with many men
as a payment for her husband’s debt.
i was wondering:
how much was the debt?
what were the conditions of the debt?
why did they agree on the exchange for sex?
and how did they measure
the amount of sexual satisfaction
of all the creditors
as the replacement for the debt?
emotional connection
his own mortality
half of income is lost
no one to wash the dishes
the pain of new dating
parents
girlfriend
wife
child
friends
kids
pets
god
animals
planet
toys from childhood
taxi drivers
computer
coffee
i would not like
to have my penis cut off
by a cigar cutter
to fall face down and
break my teeth on a rock
to insult someone so much
that they never speak to me again
to have lumbal punction
or to burry my children
while dying of
a very painful cancer
while my wife is cheating
on me with my best friend
who owes me money