7 very large meals
90 mins on the toilet
playing decade old games
nothing to watch
writing random poems
lack of distraction from death
total inability to plan

i live with constant guilt
for forgetting
all the great ideas i had
while taking a shower
and that i deprived humanity
of these great ideas
due to my inability to
memorize while showering.
i am so sorry.
please forgive me.

the worst tragedy
is to come up with a great idea
and forget it a minute after.

what is left is
only a feeling
of utter inability and neglect.