i never again
want to wear a backpack.
they make me heavier,
they make my back much bigger,
they make me sweat,
and i always have to come up
with stuff to put in them.
it is not enough that i never use one.
i want them ended. forever.
please.

a sexy actress got
an important role
to play a paralyzed woman
and to play it better
she broke her own back
and this freaked out everyone
and they cancelled the movie.

my son and i woke up together.
we were alone.
we went down to the kitchen
and he wanted to eat a kiwi.
i scooped the kiwi with a spoon
thinking how i can cut out a nice big piece.
i was happy he wanted kiwi in the morning.
i gave the piece to him.
i realized it was big for him
but was confident he can chew it.
he tried hard.
but he started choking.
i flipped him upside down
holding his leg with one arm
and tapping his back with another.
he spat out one piece.
he continued to choke.
i again flipped him over
and started tapping his back.
there was no one to help me.
his life depended on how i tap his back.