poetry conspiracy theory 2

it is not a coincidence that
reading and writing poetry fell out of fashion
while manufactured consent grew

i am sorry for my shitty political angry poems

i know i have been writing
a lot of political angry poems
but this is how i feel
these days.
i am sorry for this.
if you are bored by my political angry poems
you can go to nikolatosicpoetry.com
and find my other poems
back when i was not so political and angry
or you can just wait for me to start
writing other poems again.
i can not be political and angry forever.
i am sorry.

where is it all going

i am writing these confusing poems
and i do not know
where they are taking me

it is fun and scary

i need to eat less and exercise more
to stay alive long enough
to see the end of it all

why writing poetry is important

if you accepted
that your true self,
your thoughts and emotions,
should be forever isolated
in the chaotic darkness
of your mind
then you should never write poetry.
i am not saying
that you will ever be
fully understood
by another person
but if you do not write poetry
you will surely never really exist.
it takes so little to write poetry
and the gains are so big
so the only reason not to do it
is if you are afraid
that others truly know you.
but this is very paranoid and insecure.

why is writing hard?

people have been
writing for thousands of years.
everything great
was done in writing.
there are millions of
unbelievably amazing writers.
so it is normal
to feel a bit nervous
about writing.

renaissance v2

this sunday
i have spent
one hour
on writing and sharing
my poetry.
this is much more
than usual
but it is enough
for me to feel
like i started
a renaissance v2.

page 501

most of my poems
are written in a timeline
i have been writing
for the past 23 years.
it is a documentation
of one aspect of
half of my life.
this poem is written
on page 501.


i will never again
be able to write poems
as i wrote them
three hours ago

language limitations

poetry is the ultimate use of language
and i have been writing poetry for decades
and i still struggle with language
because it is so limited and primitive.
using language seems like an incredible compromise
where i lose 99 % of who i am.
i can not imagine how other people feel
who do not have the time to practice as much as i do.
it must be like living in the darkest deepest hole
of loneliness where no one can understand you
and you are forced to somehow
go through your life without anyone
knowing who you are.
it is as if you are a hamster.

reading my own poems

i only read my poems
after i forget
that i wrote them
which is exactly
17 years and 3 mins
after i wrote them.

i wrote this poem

i just felt like writing a poem
because writing a poem
makes me feel
like i did something
really good

writing poetry

writing poetry
is the hardest thing ever
because you have to
intensively think
about death
every day

death again

whenever i have
nothing good to write about
i write about death
it is the easiest
most universal subject
very commercial
easy sale!

funny poem

blind man is touching a grater
and than he says:
who wrote this bullshit?