on 14:42 wednesday 10 august 2022
i reacted to a youtube video
failing to operate using only
my own independent thought

on 14:40 wednesday 10 august 2022
i will completely stop reacting
and will operate using only
my own independent thought

writing poems
allows me to express
my smallest single isolated ideas
without the burden
of wrapping it up
in a bullshit narrative
or proving it with
bullshit imaginary experiences.

poems are
smallest indivisible particles
of conscious thought
made for sharing.

i physically died
but i was still conscious.

it took me few moments
to realize that this is afterlife,
that i exist as a spirit
and that i did not end
with my body.

i felt enormously happy.
i was terrified of death
all my life
and there is no death.

but then i thought
what if this ends as well?