i was considering buying boeing stocks
because some of their airplanes fell apart
and their stock got cheap
and i was a little bit tempted to overlook
that they make weapons
but then their whistleblower killed himself
in the middle of an investigation
and i finally decided this is not for me
in spite of a 62 % growth tip by cnn.com.

like all old people
i know that the world
is getting shittier.

and if everyone
just listened to me
everything would be better.

i also know
this is not true,
but i have no alternative.

i wish i loved my kids so much
to treat them badly
so they would love me less
and be less sad when i die